by Miss Thirsty
Why do I feel like I have to
be perfect? Never
showing the struggle, or pain, or desire for love? There is a pain in my heart
and I am not as I seem, but why is there this paralyzing fear that if anybody
knew, I would get hurt? It is built in
me to, deeply and powerfully, to fear judgment and failure. Would people still want to be around me if
they saw and experienced the real me? Could anybody love this person who hides
herself? Would people really love me if
I opened up? These things are to be feared but to what extent? To the extent
that I am paralyzed? Really, maybe I
should not have that level of a fear when I come to the real me. Instead of a good
fear, perhaps it has turned into a bad fear. Wait. Are there others like me
with their soul silently screaming? I
find myself feeling like I am the only one but is that really true? Perhaps It
is like a Masquerade, where everyone wants to have their identity known, but
doesn’t want to be the first to take their mask off. How much would I be freed if I choose not to
not to hide. Would it really be that
bad? Could I really find freedom from this fear and let go? Knowing and doing are two very different
things. If I did open up, would I be
loved? Is there anyone who could love the real me?
And when will I stop trying to be perfect?
Sincerely,
Miss Thirsty
Ecclesiastes 7:20 - For [there is] not a just man upon earth, that
doeth good, and sinneth not.
Romans 3:23 - for
all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God
Hebrews 12:2 - Looking to Jesus the author and finisher of our faith;
who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the
shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God
1 John 4:10 - In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he
loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins
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